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this muse depicts suicide ideations, promotes self harm, allows unhealthy coping mechanisms and have several mental disorders. he only has people who enable his habits in his life that prevents him from getting better. the typist does not encourage proana. they use this character as a tool for therapy. by writing this muse, it prevents them to act out thoughts, actions and values relating to anoerxia and bulmia. you're familiar with the idea that writing can be cathartic, right? that's basically the purpose of this account. they are strongly against proana.

since this is a triggering topic for most people, I do not advise you to interact with my muse if it makes you uncomfortable in any sense. I do not want my partners to be walking on eggshells when roleplaying with me. unless you are a hundred percent certain you can handle my muse, it's ill-advised you stay here and lurk.

instead, block me as I have no problems writing problematic muses because I am confident that my muse's thoughts, actions and reasonings does not directly affect and coincide with my own beliefs and opinions.

with that said, I block proana users and the twitter account my faceclaim uses along with their fanbase.

this is all purely fiction despite some scenes that may be garnered from real life experiences. you can deem some parts of what you'll read as literary hoaxes while others are taken from people I've talked to and topics I've struggled with in the past.

please stay safe and take care of yourself, read the bio data carefully before interacting!

with crushed skulls and broken spines, you turned ashes into gun powder.

ever heard of the car crash narrative? it's when you can't look away from the tragedy. a body's fight or flight response only happens when the individual is directly involved inside the high-stress situation.

bystanders, during a car crash, watches the scene unfold. rather than the normal response of flinching and turning their head around— they simply stop cold, frozen and stares.

from an outsider's perspective, one would think: how hard can it be? oh, no. not for the patient but the parents. (although, a number of people do believe it's the victim's fault— i mean, i have no ounce of pity for myself.)

just eat.

see, there's no car crash when it's happening inside the mind. they're not explosions and death or blood and gore. they're numbers ranging from calorie count to the kilograms on the scale.

sure, they have some sort of physical embodiment. the bruises on your spine from the sit ups, the calloused knuckles on your right hand from shoving your fingers down your throat.

soon enough, you develop a gastric reflux and you throw up the meals without the use of your hands. but you have to sit through the retching and its not the vomiting that's worse, it's the gagging. your body refusing to ingest food.

some people are lucky enough to not feel hunger.

so you take these drugs, they're pills. they're banned and illegal because the side effects are lethal. it starts out with a dry mouth, nausea and dizziness following right after. it's all completely bearable,you discard the paranoia for anxiety. that is until you get depression, until you're having sleeping problems and soon enough, your organs begin giving up on you. you get rushed to the emergency room after passing out. you come out alive but hospitals scare you and you don't trust doctors.

they stave off the hunger, they're appetite suppressants. you continue taking them.

you get carried away, it's never about being thin enough. it turns into an addiction and you look at yourself in the mirror, your mother tells you you're sick. she can't stand seeing you die anymore and she sends you to fucking europe. here's the thing, though. you like it. you like looking impossibly thin.

it takes effort to get where you are.

you are sick and yet, so is every person that follows your blog and before you know it, you're an icon. the ones who don't get it will call you a skeleton, apologize and feel so sorry for you. there's that depiction in their eyes while your friends inside the internet says otherwise. you're a walking, breathing, talking doll. soft spoken and fragile. you're so pretty, you are so pretty—

please eat.

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i like it when it hurts like hell, there’s nothing you could do to me i wouldn’t do to myself.

FACTS & TRIVIA.

» he has major daddy issues, even if he doesn't know about it. refutes such comments when directed about it as he's close with his father (or so he thinks.)

» coke is innocent to a fault, he understands what sex is but doesn't react well to the topic.

» he's obsessed with greek mythology and indie films.

» he enjoys psychological horror and thriller but a bit squeamish when it comes to body horror and gore.

» has no problem with the snuff genre but stays away from jumpscares as he has a weak heart.

» was mistaken to be mute as a child and now, he walks on eggshells every time he interacts with a new face.

» he's locked away in a castle, playing princess. he spends his days filled with scheduled piano lessons and miscellaneous tasks.

» he grew up home-schooled, he lives with his dad's prostitutes inside the mansion. he considers them his best friends.

» as the predecessor of his father's company, he reads textbooks about business management on his spare time from their personal library.

» he refuses to take proper education due to his social anxiety, the thought of being in a room full of people frightens him.

» he's a little. he's a part of the ddlb and cg/l community as a little despite having no official caregiver.

» has connections with the fashion industry. he occasionally walks the runway (when he feels like it.)

» his favorite shows are skins (uk), shameless (us) and skam.

DISLIKES.

» his mother. loud noises. body fat. bugs. the sound a lizard makes (it makes him shiver.) tumblr poetry. action movies. the sunlight. being pressured.

LIKES.

» boys, he likes boys. tall boys, skinny boys— jerks. professional models. high fashion. winter. fairy lights. the smell of old books.

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you are calm and reposed, let your beauty unfold. pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones.

LINKS:.

cc: appetite.
tumblr: cokelithe.
twitter: cokelithes.
discord: ask for it.

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PLOT PAGE.

what's it like to remember a distant memory so vividly?

trigger warnings to brace yourself for, don't follow if the following causes you discomfort:

» eating disorders.

do not follow if you:

» post pictures of minors, depicted in sexual situations.
» retweet too much nsfw content.
» are an illiterate or crack rp account.

I do not post anything graphic, I do not post self-harm photos or allow my muse to tweet when he's having a depressive episode.

proceed.

faceclaim used is jeon jungkook of bts.

literary works this muse is inspired by:
» paperweight by meg haston
» wintergirls by laurie halse anderson


mun is of age, they're 21+ / lapslock only.

THANK YOU so much for sticking through, I deeply appreciate it.

with crushed skulls and broken spines, you turned ashes into gun powder.

HERE'S THE CAR CRASH NARRATIVE.

YOU CAN'T LOOK AWAY FROM TRAGEDY.

PROCEED WITH CAUTION

𝐢 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐢𝐭 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭𝐬, 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆'𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆 𝐢 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟.

if you want a bullshit answer, I had to someone with a decent bmi because if I used any other male fcs who are significantly skinny like yoongi or hyungwon, it would have been incredibly insulting where it'll feel like i am boxing them in that category as if there's something wrong with them for being that thin.

irl jeongguk's body type— although, an eating disorder comes in different shapes, forms and sizes— strays away from the typical body image one would have that suffers from such.

also isn't it kind of triggering to just use a fc with a BLATANT eating disorder? kind of fucked up if I just started writing behind eugenia cooney's face.

but if you want real honesty, jeon jeongguk has been my muse since bangtan debuted and I don't think that's going to change. he's my muse in every sense of the word, I am only ever inspired to write when I'm portraying him.

I understand I could have made this oc much more accurate if I used lee jieun or shin hyejin but I don't think I would have had had the will to write them, I'm aware seo inguk had a history of bulmia, too.

on a side note, it's not right to look at a person and judge whether they are ED-passing or not.

why did you use jeongguk as the fc?